Fall Decorating with Bipolar- Picture perfect hypomania is happening now

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Brown Leaf

I’ve become fascinated lately with watching cleaning motivation videos. Housewives in picture perfect houses that scream Pinterest, cleaning their “horrible messes” left by their small team of children. And yes, I am addicted! I certainly do not have a Pinterest home with multiple children, but rather an early 2000’s styled living space with one tornadic 9 year old and my wonderful husband. I do not clean every day nor do I have a cleaning routine. I work 40 hours a week, and commute a total of 2 hours each day. I don’t got time for dat!

The one thing these super moms have been doing is Fall Decorating. Most of the channels had already done their fall makeovers in August. I love the comments like “I love fall décor, even though it’s still 1,000 degrees outside”. I now understand why Christmas décor shows up one minute after September officially starts- these moms just HAVE to be the first ones to decorate! And this year, I joined them.

Fall is fun. It’s not hot as an oven outside, but rather warmish days and cool nights. Apples and pumpkins show up everywhere. Reds, yellows, oranges, browns, coppers, and golds splash on all the things and blankets begin to breed on the back of couches. Hot cider, cookies, and pumpkin spice. It’s all the stuff I love. I’m that girl with the Starbucks PSL and a thick scarf and leggings in knee high boots. I start crochet season because making a blanket while using it is so awesome. Fall is my jam.

I’ve never been a fall decorator. I have Halloween stuff, but not in any major sense of the word. My house is easily missed on the street based upon the modest décor. And that stuff doesn’t really go up till mid October. But watching women smartly place plastic and ceramic pumpkins and fake leaves on shelves and counters around their home hit a chord with me. I suddenly had hopes and dreams for my house. I wanted fall décor. I needed fall décor. But it was not even close to fall. When I started this it was 92F outside with 400% humidity and a remnant tropical depression was about to hit out area. Everything is still green! And so what, I NEED to join in on this damn roller coaster of warmth and Happy Fall Y’all silliness. I bought pillow covers, glass pumpkins, bowl fillers, fall pitcher, fabric pumpkins, gnomes. I have a wreath and table runner coming. Candles are breeding. A giant bag of willow balls and seed pods has exploded in every container. I did my acrylic pour art in fall colors just to hang them on the wall. OMG what have I done? And I am still riding the high. I feel energized. I had this stuff up exactly two days and I was already getting a high looking at it when I get home from work. And more is on the way. And it hits me- I’m hypomanic. HYPOMANIC!!!!!!!!

The signs of hypomania I am personally feeling include: feeling very happy and elated; uncontrollable excitement; high activity levels; difficulty paying attention or focusing; racing thoughts; spending spree. It’s that last one there that triggered me to see it. I spent $136 at Home Goods on fall décor, and another $200 on Amazon within 3 days time. And now I know my husband will wonder what in the hell I am doing. Boxes will start to show up and he will see how happy I get when I open them and pull out more and more stuff. And he’s already tried to give me a reality check by asking where exactly I plan on storing all of this stuff once the season is over. And I don’t know! I’ll find somewhere. Much of this stuff can probably get stored in the attic since it won’t be affected by temperature extremes. But until that point- which will probably be the first week of December this year, I don’t care! I know I will crash and regret the hit to my already beaten wallet but right now I’m riding the spice high and loving the way I feel.

FALL HAS LANDED!!!!

Are you addicted to a season or holiday and go all out making your home feel like it landed squarely in the middle of it? Drop a comment and let me know! We aren’t all lonely and nuts, there are tons of us décor crazies!